day 1

fail.
fail.
fail.

i am so tired of failing.  did great today - breakfast.  lunch we went to moe's and i don't think i had more than 3 chips.  of course, i did have diet coke.  which i am still not sure if i can give up.  dinner was okay.  had a few more sweet potato chips than i should have.

and then.................on vacation.  and our kids made us some goodies.  chocolate covered oreos and chocolate dipped strawberries. i went to town.

i had planned to not even bring them.  but eric threw them in there.  and plus, our kids made them and i feel like i have to at least try them.  or else i have to lie and tell them i did.  and so he goes to the shower and i eat.  i think that's bad - sneaky eating.  i think that might be sign there is a problem here.

ugh.  i hate myself.  why did i do that?  well, because i wanted to.  and that's where my struggle is.  i want it and yet i don't want it.

so i am laying here feeling just hating myself and my continual failures.  i feel like i just can't do this.  and i have never had anything in life that i just couldn't do.

so frustrating.

starting again tomorrow.  maybe i'll get through ONE day and do well.

plan for tomorrow...
kashi with yogurt
sandwich and fruit
voila
exercise

please God.  i need your help!!!!!